Friday, January 9


 (look at those cute baby toes)
Each night during Isaac's bath time, he crosses his feet as he carefully analyses each tub toy.
Our Lord blessed me with the inspiration the other day to look at how Isaac's little feet and ankles fit perfectly together.  His position, almost heart like, is the way that he was positioned in my tummy for 9 months.
Our blessed Creator IS amazing, isn't He

This awesome realization, made my heart flutter with joy as a longing for my little Isaac to be all mine again started to creep in....I miss him being inside of me, where he and I bonded in the most intimate way.  He will never be ALL MINE again in such a powerful way as in those nine months.  Then, as I began to grow sad, my wonderful Jesus comforted me by gently whispering a Thought into my fragile human heart.
This most holy thought, was that I was SO blessed to have even been chosen to "grow" Isaac in my tummy and to have been chosen to become his mommy. That in itself was such a miracle and now, just as the intimate feeling of those nine months with Isaac move further and further into the distance of my memory,  Our Lord gives me an unexpected present...a reminder, as I watch my little Isaac positioning himself, as if he were back inside of me.
I love bath time!!

Thank you Lord, Jesus, for that feeling of "Awe" that I have for you, every time I see you working in me and around me!! Thank you for allowing me to safely carry and nurture Isaac inside of me and for blessing our family with him.  For You knew exactly what You were doing.....You always do!  For that, I surrender everything to you, Lord.  Do with me as you please.  For I know that You are bettering me, as You chip away at my rough edges.  Lord, Jesus, I beg of You to please love me now, just as I am, but love me too much to leave me this way.  I want to grow in holiness until I am Your true delight, as You, Jesus, are truly mine.