Thursday, February 14

VALENTINES DAY 2019

VALENTINES DAY 2019
Thank You Jesus,
For this MOST EXTRAORDINARY boy...who somehow fell in love with this VERY ORDINARY girl 
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God + you + me = True Love
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HAPPY ST. VALENTINES DAY JEREMY

Side note:
i just need to mention this for the memories for later
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We were actually in the middle of yelling at Nicholas and Savannah for arguing....
When I interrupted their fussing....yelling crabbily to Savannah...

"Take a picture of dad and I ...we need to leave to make our dinner reservation!"
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(Then we smiled happily while she snapped the picture)
We actually laughed about it as we took the picture
#realfamilymoments
If pictures could talk......the stories they would tell

Thank You Most Glorious Lord Jesus for our family
As a mommy and a daddy we really dislike punishing our children, but i know that it is our only mission, to return these little souls to You.
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Please keep us strong in our vocation as parents and to always lead them to You...despite our numerous failings
We love You Lord Jesus

Saturday, February 9

THE ABSOLUTE WORST MOMENT OF MY LIFE (contemplating Gracie Ann's last day, 1year later)

THE TEXT THREAD BETWEEN JEREMY AND I 
DURING GRACIE ANN'S LAST BLESSED HOURS WITH US ON EARTH
February 8, 2018 (8:00pm)
Jeremy was diagnosed with the flu, so he was staying out at our lake house until he was no longer contagious. He was coming into town the next morning for a meeting



 February 9, 2018 (8:00am)
Gracie Ann woke up with in a seizer with an extremely high fever
(which had happened often throughout her life)
I gave her a cool bath....Jeremy came home as I finished bathing her. Gracie Ann's breathing was shallow and she just didn't look good. We were both afraid
Jeremy called 911
I sat in the ambulance with Gracie Ann and prayed, as the EMT tried to get a line in her tiny arm to start an IV.....he just could not get a line, I kissed her and made a little cross on her forehead and they had to leave....Jeremy went with her
(10:29am first update from Jeremy)













Job 1:21
"Naked I came from my mother's womb, and naked shall I return. The Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away; Blessed be the Name of the Lord"

THAT MOMENT WAS THE ABSOLUTE WORST MOMENT OF MY ENTIRE LIFE
But as my heart was truly shredded into 1,000,000 pieces, in that very same single moment of my true agony was....


THE ABSOLUTE MOST AMAZING MOST SENSATIONAL AND MOST JOYFUL MOMENT OF GRACIE ANN'S
Luke 23:43
"Truly I say to you (Gracie Ann), today thou shalt be with Me in Paradise"

I can only imagine.....

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I can only imagine.....what that moment might have been like for Gracie Ann, when she gazed into the most Beautiful and Loving Eyes of her Heavenly Father for the very first time..
What did He say...
What did He look like...
What did His Mighty Arms feel like when they embraced Gracie Ann so tightly....
did she rest her head on His Chest...
could she hear the beating of His most Sacred Heart...
How did He smell...
What did His Voice sound like when He told her that He Loved her...

Oh my Dear Jesus,
my heart aches in brokenness, as i am longing for my little Gracie Ann.
but i know that Gracie Ann was never mine, but Your's Jesus. i will be forever grateful to You, for the immense blessing of being chosen to be the mother of this precious baby girl.
Thank You for sharing her with me and with this world...and thank You for taking her home to Heaven  with You to Adore You and Glorify You for all of eternity.

I love You Jesus and i trust in You....yesterday, today, tomorrow.....without question, without counting the cost, with all of my heart and with all of my soul and with everything that I have, and with everything that i will ever be...
no matter what.....I choose You, because You made me for Yourself.
i love You
i promise never to turn away from You
please never ALLOW me turn away from You 
for i know that i am little and i am weak and i am afraid
please carry this cross for me.....
JESUS I TRUST IN YOU

Wednesday, February 6

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MADISON

HAPPY WEDNESDAY
19 years ago… and nine months prior to this day, I became a mommy for the very first time.....

Something that my heart always longed for, ever since I had been a little girl.

After much fervent prayer and longing, Jesus so mercifully and graciously blessed me, by creating this perfect and amazing little person, and THEN, so Lovingly, He chose on that very day...and at that very moment, to gift this special little baby girl to ME, to fill my empty womb, where she would grow and thrive...and so too, entrusting me to become a faithful mother. 


HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY PRECIOUS CHILD!!!

I was transformed on that day forever and ever and ever!
Now you have become, a beautiful blessing, not only to me, but to this entire world. 
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Madison, your heart is golden and it shines so brightly for all to see! You are our Lord’s true delight!! 
Today is...and was the BEST day ever!
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I love you so so much Madi-Bear. 

Thank you for allowing Jesus to *use your voice, to speak His words...
*use your hands to minister His love to others....
*and for using your feet, to so faithfully and so fervently RUN towards Him, with your hands extended out....in order to bring as many souls as you can, with you, to Christ. 
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY 
i love you with all of my heart and with all of my soul.

GOD IS SO GOOD ALWAYS SURPRISING HIS DAUGHTER
A surprise visit home by Madison for an impromptu Birthday celebration
I quickly set up a festive display for our Madison-Bear
Then we went to have a visit and some girl-talk with our third little sister, our Gracie Ann
 Jesus blessed Madi and i with such a beautiful crisp and sunny winter afternoon, to go and to visit Gracie Ann.
Madison and Gracie Ann are my bookends
Madison and I had such a wonderful time just visiting as we shared our hearts, after singing to Gracie Ann and praying together
What a great surprise to see my Madison on this special day

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MADISON COURTNEY
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I love You so much Jesus!  
You continue to so mercifully bless me with gift after gift.  I love the children that you entrusted to Jeremy and I so so much.
As a wife and a mother, I live out my vocation. 
Please keep me close to You as I work each and every moment to return these little ones back to You....along with my beloved Jeremy....so we are called as husband and wife to lead each other (hand in hand) back Home to You
 Help me to always honor and glorify You each and every day, in each and every moment, with each and every breath.
You and me Jesus