Friday, July 27


There is this beautiful lady at daily Mass that has caught my little Isaac's eye.  Each and every Mass, he gives her special hugs at the "Sign of Peace".  It started when she started sitting right in front of us at Mass
(we always sit in the same pew.....with the stained glass window depicting "Abraham and Isaac"....with a smaller stained glass window above, with St. Joseph and across the pew on the other wall, a smaller stained glass window with St. Ann.  This pew was chosen by in other words, Jesus picked it special for us) as I cannot sit even near the front of Mass because of sickness.....everyone sneezes forwards : )
Anyway, this pew is about 4 pews from the back and I noticed the Abraham and Isaac stained glass, so we sat there....only to find out that there were so many other special reasons that Jesus chose this pew for us...He is always pleasing me each and every minute.
One of His glorious surprises was Ms Raquel sitting in front of Isaac and i.  What started with smiles and sweet handshakes became an instant love!
Isaac gets so excited to see her and Raquel....Isaac's Abuela as he calls her calls him her little angel.
She cries when he hugs her, while Isaac's eyes literally glow with love and excitement. 
He looks forward to seeing her each and every day!
I took a picture of them one day after Mass and we put the picture into a frame and gave it to her as a surprise.  This is what she posted on her FaceBook
They are just so important to each other and I love to see God's beautiful Face as He brought this beautiful lady and this little boy together!  Later, Ms Raquel sent us a picture of where she put this special image of her and Isaac
(right next to her Shrine honoring our Precious Little Baby Jesus)
Isaac has his picture of her displayed proudly in his room and he talks about his abuela each and every time he walks passed her
It is truly a special relationship
Thank You Jesus for bringing such special souls into our lives, who make our hearts flutter with happiness.
I love You my Dear Jesus so so much.....Your Most beautiful and Holy Face is literally everywhere that I look.
What a joyful life You have blessed me with....Please never allow me to "not" see Your shining Divinity in everything
kerry ann

Thursday, July 19


The person who God created just for me!  I love running towards Jesus with you, Jeremy♥️
25 yrs together....and 21 of those years happily lived as Mr and Mrs Lustig
Happy Birthday to our precious #3...our  Nicholas....i can’t believe that you’re 14yrs old..
And as YOU always say....
You were the best anniversary gift we had EVER received...and ya know what  Nicholas....that is totally true!!

All of the boys
All of the boys and their dads on the boat ready for some crazy tubbing!

It warmed my heart to see all of these dads and sons having so much fun together!  Everyone was laughing so hard.  One dad said that he hadn't laughed that hard in years!  What a blessing indeed!
Boys need their dads and our world so often forgets that!
They were so excited that they got it on video

I don't have a lot of pics because it was a super fun "boy only" party!  I don't ever want these special times of bonding to end!
Thank You Jesus for making possible

I thank Jesus each and every day for first son and a most wonderful and virtuous big brother to Isaac
I love you with all of my heart

Wednesday, July 4


First of all.....Benny came to the lake early to help us get ready for our reunion
Benny came to spend time on the 4th with us, and I have to thank him for helping Jeremy make our old "parking Lot" backyard light, into a beautiful flag pole TOPPED with a Cross for our Lord, Jesus
Benny is a special part of our family indeed
 We found the wooden cross......what better to have on top of our beloved country and state flags.....Jesus is Lord above ALL of that!
Yikes it was high up in the air.....I was so afraid that Jeremy would fall.....I am so grateful that Benny was there to help
I promise you.....a HUGE FLOCK of Canadian geese made its was over up to the dock as Jeremy raised the American was so funny! 
Seriously.....the geese came out of NOWHERE
Shouldn't' they be in CANADA in July?!?!?
 There are the flags, proudly flying underneath the Cross


Let the fun old tradition brought back because I am better and we can have everyone visit again
Most all of these pics are brought to you by Auntie I couldn't ever find my phone!
Thank you Destin

 Rope swing off of the dock

Kayaking is super fun
Of course tubbing over and over again.....even when their muscles hurt 

Dancing to the YMCA
"Young man, there's no need to feel down, I said young......"

Yikes.....Uncle Jeremy flipped the kids over.....they loved it 
little Isaac and "baby" Katherine 
 Such excitement
 Our yearly habitual dinner at Babe's Chicken
Still at the chicken place
Kayaking until the sun goes down 
More kayaking the next day......kayaking everyday 
 Uncle Jason and baby Katherine
All of the Lustig cousins and one McBee Cousin......we miss you Jason McBee 
 My mom, sister, brother in law and sweet nieces came in for the day (of course my daddy could not come as he is homebound! Boy I miss him being around.....but on days like today, I just love just sitting around and visiting with all of those that I love
 Isaac and of friends since brith....really best friends when in my and Destin's bellies
(they just didn't know it yet)
 Me and my baby boy, Isaac 
 Rebecca and Max
 Grammy and Katherine
 Daddy and baby Isaac 
 Even Oompa much fun for everyone
Family is priceless
 Madison and Lindsay
Twin cousins
Uncle Jason 
Auntie Destin 
 Rebecca, Madeleine, and Isaac 
Savannah and Elizabeth 
Twin Cousins
Wow.....those beautiful Lustig genes are strong ones

Thank You Jesus for an amazing family and an amazing new life with that family
kerry ann


(A post from July 2014)
My heart was just so broken that summer of 2014

Thank You Jesus for carrying me
4th of July 2014 
(sitting at the Lakehouse in Louisiana)

I miss my daddy SO MUCH that, that to portect my heart, I sometimes I try not to think about him in his current state of mind.  I know that, that is very selfish.
My daddy always told me that he, would,  as well as I, have a special mission for Jesus.  We had many talks about it.......he was the only one who REALLY understood my heart and we were/are bery much a like.  I am so sad so often, but especially tonight for some reason.  I guess it's a holiday and things everywhere I turn remind me of him.  He is/was the most gentle man I ever know, and loved Jesus with his entire being.  He helped to form me into a stronger Christian, closer to Jesus my entire life.  I feel sad that he cannot respond to me anymore and that I don't know if he cpmprehends what I am saying and I honestly thing that he down not remember me anymore. SO, Madison just told me to tell him anyway  She is so wise and sees the pain that losing my daddy's recognition has broken my heart into a ilium pieces.

I just need to talk to you.....
You have been my hero my whole life
You even had silly names for "Brown Bear" or "kernel whitehead"
When I was little and would come home from school feeling bad because another kid had hurt my feelings, you would always tell me that if you were in my class that you would be my best friend.....
each and every day you would list off all kinds of reasons why you loved me so much

You were joyful and fun while always being gentle and loving. You were/are so patient....meek and humble, only raising your voice on occasion....not very often at all

I could always talk to you about anything and I could always trust your advice knowing that it was entirely inspired by Jesus, even though I couldn't have put that feeling of true confidence, into words when I was younger
People always said that I looked like you.....and I think that we totally do!

We had a secret pal club,where we would go to eat lunch at a secret place that we wouldn't tell to was the Pizza Hut in down town Middleton Wisconsin, and it had a special miniature door just for kids
At our secret pal meetings, we would talk about anything that I wanted....really a lot of talking (from me) about nothing at all

You knew me better than anyone because you were my dad and we thought a lot alike
In Disney a World, we walked hand and hand swinging our arms and hips and called it our "walking down Main Street" walk, as we laughed and embarrassed mom and Kelley 

You called me Kerry Bear and I had an imaginary life in my mind...where I was a little brown bear, living in the woods. You would ask me questions about asked me  what it was like to live there and then you would just sit back and interested in what I had to say. You are what truly made it "real" for me. I loved that about you

As I grew older, I saw how intimately you knew and truly loved our Lord and would come to you with any theological question that I might have, no matter how important or of small importance that it might friends even came to you for counsel. I could always trust that you would believe me and take me seriously. 

Growing up with your example, I too loved our Lord with all if my heart and soul 
I would wake up in the middle of the night to find you kneeling and praying by my bedside

We always turned to our Lord, as we prayed fervently for EVERYTHING (little things and bigger things). We laid them all at the foot Of the cross

I remember coming to you when I was in college on a few occasions with worries about life or spirituality and you would always take time to sit and discuss my thoughts with me. You never had to "be doing something else" I had your full attention as long as I needed.

I remember us talking about how we felt chosen to suffer in a special way for Jesus......and how we would be honored to do so. You just always "got me" (understood me)

You taught me how precious our sufferings were, while carrying His cross so gracefully with such great faith and love for Jesus.....I know that you excepted this cross for Him and that you are offering this suffering for the holiness of our family and for my health.  You NEVER doubted that I would be healed.  You know this with certainty and because I trust you with  all of my heart, I believe that my healing WILL in fact happe!

I NEVER doubt the joy that this difficult surrender fills you with, even while it hurts you to see me so sad about you

Oh daddy it hurts my heart SO MUCH  to think about you, so sometimes I try not to....and I'm so sorry for that. 
But I love you so much with my entire heart so NOT thinking about you is impossible!
I just hate hurting SO MUCH......Oh daddy, I wish that you hadn't forgotten me!
I wasn't ready to lose you yet. 
I am offering this suffering up as a beautiful prayer to my Jesus, as I know would please you, and I feel so humbled that my Jesus would entrust me with such a huge cross, but my heart hurts so much sometimes, I don't know how long I can bare it.

Oh God, I am crying out to You
Oh God, please hold me!!! I'm so sad!!! 
Why doesn't he remember me?  I'm not ready to be forgotten yet....I wasn't prepared! I don't know who I am now!  I have lost part of my identity, as he has said in his silence..."I do not know you"......I didn't see it coming. I've lost him!!! I've already lost him!!!

He won't know me again until we meet in Heaven. I have never longed so fervently for Heaven, where my daddy will embrace me and  KNOW (without a doubt) that I'm his Kerry bear. I want him to know his new grandson, Isaac James, that we named In his honor just praying that Isaac will be like his dad is so virtuous. 

Jesus, your Loving Father blessed me with a beautiful inspiration while driving that has given me comfort....
All that my daddy ever wanted was to be holy and please You, Jesus. Because of his illness, he can no longer sin!  Because he does not understand the reality around him, he is like a little child, who is not responsible for their actions because they do not understand. He can never again offend You, my sweet Jesus.  This is exactly what my daddy wanted was to suffer for Christ with a ruly pure could I know that this terrible suffering is worth that incredibly huge blessing. I Praise You, Jesus for that.....

I am so sorry that I am crying so much
I always tried to hold it in, knowing faithfully that this was a cross God had given me to embrace, carrying it with Grace and love. Lord, Jesus, I know that You won't give me too much. I will never lose faith or fester anger over this horrible pain, I promise, but right now, I just need to cry.

Please hold me close and wipe away my tears because I am so afraid that I may never be able to stop crying. My eyes just won't be dry tonight. 
I don't want to be sad, Jesus. 
This grieving is just so difficult
My heart is on the floor, broken to the point of being unrecognizable 

Please bestow your Grace.....shower me with an abundance of Grace!! I desire it!! I need it!!! 
love, kerry ann

Monday, July 2


Dearest Father, my Creator, my Might Savior, the Lamb of God,

I love You so much and I am so honored to carry this special cross for You.  You gave it to me out of Perfect Love and I am eternally grateful to You. It is so heavy but made of the most amazing and glorious gems that could ever be found.  
They are not even of this earth.....for they are too precious and perfect...these gems that cover this wonderously beautiful cross were made from Your most Holy and most Exquisite Nail-Scared Hands.
Please stay with me forever Jesus and I will carry this cross for Your Absolute Glory.....because without You Lord Jesus Christ, I could not carry it's weight.

This proved to be a challenging summer without my sweet Gracie Ann.  My heart just aches to see her and to hold her.
There always seems to be someone NOT know that feeling, when one or more of your family is out and you are very aware that everyone is not home.  I have felt this awareness since February 9, 2018 at 1:24pm
 Gracie Ann ran as fast as she could towards Jesus and I am so happy for her to be out of pain and finally home where she was designed to be....just like all of us.

But my heart will always be in a continuous agony.  Jesus still greatly blesses me with genuine joy and happiness, because there is so much that He blessed me children and my husband, my family and my friends....
But underneath my skin, below the depths that the outside world can see, lies my broken and mangled heart.
I know that You are close to me always....I know that You never leave my side.  I beg of You oh Holy One, please never allow me to turn away from You.....not even for one second of my life.

I love these blessings and the opportunities to find You hidden in this earthly exile, but I yearn to be Home with You, my Father.  I long for You and to adore You eternally forever and ever without any earthly distractions

Until then......

So, I will praise You and Glorify You on this earth for as long as You desire me to my Lord
I love You with all of my heart Dear Father
kerry ann