Wednesday, January 31

PRAISING HIM THROUGH THIS STORM

PRAISING HIM THROUGH THIS STORM
It is super late 2:45am...but I cannot sleep
Behold the Lamb of God

At the GUARANTEED chance of over-posting....I must humbly ask you for more prayers for our Gracie Ann

Gracie Ann was having a pretty great day and my heart was nothing short of jovial.
Jeremy even faceTimed me with Gracie Ann this evening and guess what.....
When I started talking to her, she opened up her beautiful blue eyes.
(Gracie Ann with her Daddy...the love of my life, stroking her soft hair)

My Lord God is so good to His little girl (me), to give me such a wonderful surprise tonight
(her eyes were small, but that is how she "peeks")

I got off of the phone cheery and filled with such peace and joy...even though seeing her responding to me, made me LONG for her all the more....
AND I DIDN'T THINK THAT, THAT WAS EVEN POSSIBLE
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AS I HAD MENTIONED IN AN EARLIER POST...

They started giving Gracie Ann food today through her G-button, and that was a huge step, as they were not feeding her earlier when she was struggling to breathe, just in case she needed to be intubated.

Well...Jeremy called me after our FaceTimed call, and said that she has thrown up both of the times that the nurses attemped to feed her. She has also thrown up all of her medications.
  
She was tested for the flu and RSV today, but thankfully both tests came back negative. She still has a panal, containing more viruses to be tested for tomorrow

I was really hoping that she would be moved out of the ICU tomorrow, which would make her one day closer to coming home.

But I am not really sure what is going to come of this.
I just cannot stop crying and I don't want to go to sleep without her in my arms.  
I stayed up almost all night last night because of the same reason, but when she was improving so much today, I thought that I would be able to sleep easier, with less worry.

I Know for a fact that our Lord Jesus Christ is in control and I know that I want His Will above all, but I am so frightened to see what our precious Lord's Perfect Will might be.
Even though it feels like it, I know that I am not in hell...I am at the FOOT OF THE CROSS
So I look up to see He Who stands before me


As I continue to praise Him without ceasing, it doesn't make the hurt go away and my heart remains broken
  
I didn't post this earlier when I found out 
(At about 10:00pm)

Because I was worried that I would certainly look too dramatic and annoying with all of these incessant pleas.....
but that worry is strongly rooted in vanity 
And this IS about God....NOT about me!

Peppered throughout Scripture are examples of Jesus requesting His children to ASK Him for what they need....even though He already knows exactly what is needed.
Even our Lord Jesus Himself, prays in the Garden of Gethsemane
"Going a little further, He fell with His Face on the ground and prayed"
Luke 22:39

  Jesus prayed to His Father, pleading for God to take away the suffering that was to come, BUT Jesus ended His plea with....
"Yet not as I will, but as You Will" 
Luke 22:39

So I am asking for you again to pray for Gracie Ann's nauceous little tummy....so that she is able to be nourished and gain more strength

We are so very grateful for all of your prayers!
You will never quite know, just how much they mean to our family!
(We are truly One Body in Christ)

Your prayers and comments truly helped to calm both Jeremy and my worried hearts. 
Just at the thought of all of you, interceding to God on Gracie Ann's behalf, is a gift that we will never be able to repay!

Please know that we are and always praying and offering up our  sufferings for all of you...today, tomorrow and forever

ALL GLORY BE TO THE FATHER AND TO THE SON AND TO THE HOLY SPIRIT
Dear Father,
Yet not as I will, but as You Will
Love,
kerry ann
JESUS, I TRUST IN YOU