Friday, April 3


Thank you for what You did for me
I don't even want to think about it as it is so painful, but I know that I must meditate on it to even partially, minutely understand what You did for me

So often, I am Peter....Oh how I look to Peter to remind me of Your Mercy

Please help me never to despair like Judas.  For I do so often, though. You longed for him to come back to You so that You could shower him with Your Mercy

Nothing I could do would ever be bigger than You.  No sin or failing is beyond Your Fervent Reach.  I am so prideful to think that anything would be
Jeremy and I watched "The Passion of the Christ" with the kids today.  Oh, how I cowered as Jeremy suggested it, not wanting to see You in pain (again)...the pain that my sins caused You.  As my face winced at the thought, I knew for certain in my heart that it was the mighty Voice of the Holy Spirit that spoke to Jeremy (to meditate on this arduous event) as he spiritually leads our family to God.

How that portrayal changed our hearts and reminded us of our focus and our mission on serve, rather than to be love rather than to be understand, rather than to be understood.

John 15:18
"If the world hates you, know that it hated Me before you"

We realized (as we stopped the movie often to "catechize" the children as they watched this most beautiful, real, and truly excruciating representation) that our Lord was more powerful than all of the wickedness.  He gave His was NOT taken from Him.  He could have stopped it at any time, but chose to suffer more than any man ever would or ever could.  We know this to be true, but need to be re-reminded of this with certainty.

 Jesus taught us how to serve His Father as He did.  He could have said "Enough" at anytime, but He chose to lengthen His Most Holy Suffering beyond our understanding.
He again teaches us just how valuable suffering is....for our growth and for our journey to Him.  We MUST die to ourselves in order to have true life (Him) in us!  "Why do bad things happen to good people".....Why NOT?!?
I have never been a fan of that phrase.....but seeing that movie again and again re-reminds me that if my heart is full of worldly things (including my attachment to self) than there will be no room for Jesus....His Nativity proved again that the worldly "comfortable" inn had NO room.  It was the humble and empty Stable where our Lord was able to Dwell.

We see a world full of those pleasing themselves with material things (not that material things are evil in themselves) but people are trying to replace TRUE happiness, by filling their lives (hearts) with those material things and finding no such amends.  Look at those who, by worldly standards, have it all.  They are unhappy and they most often become self-destructive as they continue in their disordered search for happiness.

Look at the simple and religious....look at the saints.....they were (are) truly happy and joyful because their happiness is in serving.  They seek their true heart's delight, not by reaching inward gratifying themselves, but rather, by reaching outward, where they can fully live out the true mission that our Lord implanted in their heart.  That is what we were created to do.  We all have One Creator and He designed us to serve others, not to be served.  Why do we still fall into the same lies over and over, when all of the proof needed is right in front of us?

Doing our Father's Will is our true calling and fulfilling it is the only key to our true happiness.

If total surrender to Your Father's Will is in fact, total and complete happiness, then You, Jesus on the Cross is the most blissful vision imaginable.

Thank You Jesus for all that You did for me.  You thought about me as You were so Eminently Dying  on the Most Holy Cross, for my sins.  Though, I am unworthy, You still shower your little girl with Graces beyond my understanding.
"Lord, I am not worthy that You should enter under my roof, but only say the Word and my soul shall be healed."
After our eyes endured the beautiful heartache and meditated on Your blessed Crucifixion, the 6 of us gathered at our church to pray the Stations of the Cross (the beautiful outdoor Stations) together.  I could not have thought of a better way to spend that solemn day.  My heart fluttered at every thought of You.
Thank you, Jesus for making this Good Friday, so profound in my heart and pleasurable to my soul.
i Love You

Love, kerry