Monday, September 28


My Dearest Little Bean,
You are my child and I am your mommy! You have my heart forever.  We cannot wait to finally meet you and hold you, but mommy is so humbled as I get to hold you right now and get to keep you all to myself until the day that our Lord decides it is time for you to meet the world, and I feel blessed that I have been bestowed this privilege.  You are very little right now......that is why we call you "little Bean", so I cannot feel you moving inside of me yet, but I look forward to the days when I can feel you kicking, hiccuping, or just playing and moving.  It is such a special time that only a mommy gets to have and I feel so blessed to have that time with you.

I LOVE the chances to see you growing inside of me

For now I can only feel your presence through crazy symptoms that make me feel funny and sometimes a little sick.  I cannot stand the smell of certain foods and I get really hungry for certain foods at silly times!  These symptoms, though hard at times,  are my true delight, as they remind me of you and that you are truly MINE (at least for now until you return to Jesus)
I pray that you are warm and comfortable inside of my belly, growing fast and healthy.

You are such a blessing and an answer to fervent prayer!  Our family was missing something and we did not even know it!

God chose me to be your mommy and I choose you everyday to be my child!  I will continue to choose you today, tomorrow, and for the rest of my life.

You are a miracle for sure and we are humbled and undeserving of such a gift from our Creator.

Madison, Savannah, Nicholas and Isaac pray for you and will continue to lift you up in prayer.  They cannot wait to meet you either!
Daddy is already smitten by much so that if I feel any sort of craving....late at night, early in the morning, even if this special food is across town...he joyfully makes sure that I get to have it.  He loves you so much and he would do anything for you!  He is wrapped around your little finger, baby!

We just love you so much

Lord Jesus Christ, you have again blessed me and left me in awe, as You have created this little soul inside me and I want above all, for You to be glorified through this amazing gift.
Jesus, I am not always very courageous and I worry more than I should when I know that You are in total control.
Jesus, I totally surrender to your Most Holy and Perfect Will.  I surrender to You with my ENTIRE BEING, my fears, my impatience, my lack of Grace, my misunderstandings and everything that I am lacking....It is not much but it is all that you ask of me.  I surrender to You,  these human failings, as they are all that I have to give....Because everything "good" inside of me, is already You.  Please if it be Your Will, help me to stay strong, stay focused on Your Holy Face, and persevere through this time in total faith.  I am so hurt knowing that my lack of faith will greatly offend You.

I love you Jesus
I totally surrender myself, as I am fully Yours, today tomorrow and forever!! I choose You, God, above and beyond everything else!

Thank you for making me a mother of 5