My heart was just so broken that summer of 2014
Thank You Jesus for carrying me
4th of July 2014
My daddy always told me that he, would, as well as I, have a special mission for Jesus. We had many talks about it.......he was the only one who REALLY understood my heart and we were/are bery much a like. I am so sad so often, but especially tonight for some reason. I guess it's a holiday and things everywhere I turn remind me of him. He is/was the most gentle man I ever know, and loved Jesus with his entire being. He helped to form me into a stronger Christian, closer to Jesus my entire life. I feel sad that he cannot respond to me anymore and that I don't know if he cpmprehends what I am saying and I honestly thing that he down not remember me anymore. SO, Madison just told me to tell him anyway She is so wise and sees the pain that losing my daddy's recognition has broken my heart into a ilium pieces.
All that my daddy ever wanted was to be holy and please You, Jesus. Because of his illness, he can no longer sin! Because he does not understand the reality around him, he is like a little child, who is not responsible for their actions because they do not understand. He can never again offend You, my sweet Jesus. This is exactly what my daddy wanted was to suffer for Christ with a ruly pure could I know that this terrible suffering is worth that incredibly huge blessing. I Praise You, Jesus for that.....